Day 6 - Heal my bones

Day 6 of my 40 day Journey with God

Psalm 6, 36, 66, 96, 126 And excerpt readings of Bernard of Clairvaux (1090-1153)
I thank God that he gave me energy to get up even though Micah first woke me at 4:30 am. I finally went to bed at 5:30 and woke up at 6:15 for the day. Micah was not sleeping well and Jen tried to comfort him with some medicine and soothing. It was my turn and all I did was put my hand on his back and he quieted, this happened twice. In between I laid down on his floor, just waiting for him to wake up again. He had no clue I was right next to him. I thought, this is how our Father is with us, just waiting to put His hand on us to let us know He is there. Even when we don’t know He is there, He waits just a second away to bring make sure we are okay.
Psalm 6 Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am faint;
O LORD, heal me, for my bones are in agony.
3 My soul is in anguish. How long, O LORD, how long?
4 Turn, O LORD, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love.
5 No one remembers you when he is dead. Who praises you from the grave [b] ?
6 I am worn out from groaning; all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.
This is a great Psalm for those that are sick or in emotional agony. It has been a wonderful reminder when I’ve been through the ringer.
Psalm 36: 5 Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies.
6 Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains,
your justice like the great deep.
I am just blown away by how He has been so merciful to me. I have had a full life of blessing and don’t deserve any of it. He is faithful!
Psalm 126 Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.
Wow. There is a constant theme through Scripture that our grief will be turned into dancing!
Proverbs 6 – “Can a man scoop fire into his lap without his clothes being burned . . . but a man who commits adultery lacks judgment; whoever does so destroys himself”
Again, fatherly Solomon advises his son to be faithful to His wife.

I am amazed at how God is so patient with us. . .but here is the key to a deep spiritual walk - "walk in the Spirit" as Paul tells us in Galatians. He says that if we do, we will not walk in the flesh. I'm just in day 6 of my journey but I have to honest, there is a huge difference in my outlook, ego, focus, thought life, joy. In church yesterday I was so engaged in worship not because I should or needed something from God, I was just excited to be praising Him with God's people. That hasn't happened in too long. My cynical cold heart has been softened by His Spirit and Word. My time with Him is having impact on my daily life, more than I ever think it will. I notice a desire to make everything right in my life, from my finances to my marriage to my fatherhood, my ministry, my neighbors . . .He is giving me desires that are not my own but only come from Him. He truly is faithful and answers our prayers, "seek first the Kingdom of God and righteousness and all these things will be added to you".

I went and played racquetball with Steven and John and I schooled this young pups, it was so much fun. Bernard of Clairvaux . . lets do it tomorrow!